I am a woman, a mother, a wife, and a survivor living with intractable epilepsy and untreated fibromyalgia. I wrestle with depression, anxiety and suicidal ideation and I always somehow emerge from these dark times with insight and a sense of peace. I was sexually abused by my father when I was growing up and I believe my chronic illnesses were directly or indirectly caused by the abuse.
I am also a psychotherapist with a Master’s degree in Psychology and the bulk of both my graduate and undergraduate degrees were focused on studying Jungian Psychology, Stories & Myths, and Dreams. I make sense of my trauma through the lens of story and I process my experiences through dreams.
The story of the Handless Maiden describes my own personal journey of recovering from abuse and living with the fall out of that abuse. A daughter of an abusive father is metaphorically handless; she may feel unable to touch the world around her or even cope with life as a result of having been scapegoated for her father’s sickness.